emotions and wine:
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"This wine is too good for toast-drinking, my dear. You don't want to mix emotions up with a wine like that. You lose the taste."— Ernest Hemingway will ferrell and drama:  (not to mention syrup and spaghetti. barfaroni.) you ask, where the heck are you going with this. (be patient, i have a point.) it's been nearly ten years since i last ran. i used to run in college, but quit after stress fractures tore my shins up. at the time, i was happy to give it up. the training was intense. the time commitment made it a challenge with school. plus, my coach was kind of a d-bag. there have been years that have gone by where i probably didn't run a single mile at any one time. huge change to the ten plus mile training runs each day that i was accustomed to. however, i miss it so much. first of all, i don't feel healthy. i am, by no means, a large person. i'll tell people i feel out of shape and they look at me like "are you nuts!" yeah i look thin, but i am soooo out of shape. my butt jiggles when i run. it scares me. second thing i miss is beating people. i'm not really competitive. but, there is nothing like beating someone in a race that makes me smile. winning is awesome, i'm not gunna lie.  a girlfriend of mine asked me to sign up for the nyc half-marathon, last june. i really didn't think we'd make the lottery, so i didn't train while it was warm. sure enough, i got in. i thought to myself, i'll just start training january first. which i did, then i got sick. then it snowed, a lot. then i got sick again. then it snowed four more times. now i'm healthy. but we have a crazy amount of snow. five am runs in twenty degree weather sucks. i'm really good at coming up with excuses (did i mention i'm losing my first toenail due to a blister and it hurts too much to run?!?!) i know, poor me. here's my point. snow, kids, and training do not mix. i don't want to give up. but, i'm not sure how well this race is going to pan out. worst case senario: i get picked up for running too slow. thank God, tomorrow is a new day. i'm going to re-start my training. jill |
